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Saturday, February 7, 2009
3rd Feb 08 (Wed) had like a super stiff neck and the entire day i was feeling like super sick and down. thank God i did not attend piano yesterday coz ive forgotten to practice my piano for like 3 days and im like super exasperated concerning all that is happeninng. went to airport to see 二姐 off at the airport... 4th Feb 08 (Thurs) another mundane day in school... 5th Feb 08 (Fri) felt extremely moody today as my friends were talking abt my grades for the past 2 subjects that ive obtained from the Os i took last year. jeremy told me if i dont retake either one of my subjects, i would need to get an A1-A2 for everything else and that is like quite a difficult tsk to accomplish. i wanna get into the mass comm course in polytechnic and its like 9-11 pts but ive already got 3 pts for my Os, my sci(chem) is like kns and even if i do well in my other 3 subjects, ive no confidence that i would be able to get an A for the 3 of them as ive been through too many dissapointments and enormous setbacks to have high hopes on myself. i feel as if stuck at the crossroads. my family on the other hand, want me to use whatever time i have for 2 subjects to study my science and even if i do, im afraid that i would only get a B4 at best and B3 for the others. sigh... 6th Feb 08 (Today) spent the whole morning stuying chemistry and the aftnoon mugging for sci(phy) as ive a test this coming monday, went for piano aft that. Dear Father, please help me Father to have 100% confidence in you that you would help me go through this difficult period of trials, tribulations, insecurity and fear that lurks around me. help me Lord not to worry but i ask of you that you would help me study my best and give my 100% concentration. help me to trust, hope and have faith that you would grant me 3 A1s for the upcoming Os this year and most importantly, pls help me do my best not just for my parents, not for myself but esp for you. i now not only commit but surrender everything into your hands In Jesus name we pray, Amen. Isaiah 40:31 but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint. |