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Saturday, March 21, 2009
ive been thinking a lot lately abt my spiritual walk in 2009, how i got through my depression of the absence of 大姐大, the person who stood by me whenever i was down, joycelyn, the friend which ive been through trials with and happy jovial sarah, the one who nvr fails to cheer me up with craziness but i was in pain. somehow, God managed to drive away all that emptiness and have brought me an extremely caring and sacrificial friend like shengwei and answered my prayers of being forgiven and pardoned by the ones whom i once hurt. despite having all my prayers answered and all my problems resolve, i feel as if im drifting away from God as i begin reading the bible less frequently and worse still, conforming back to my sinful habits such as gossiping. im feeling rather vexed with myself as i just simply cant stop sinning and having received much, i feel as if ive done nothing and on the contrary, ive been continuously sinning and became the pot calling the kettle black telling other not to sin when i myself am no different. Dear Father, i come to you tdy Lord for repentance. i havent been doing my best telling others abt your word, preaching to them of what youve done, disobeying your commandments, living through you testimonies. i ask that you will be able to search my heart and cleanse me from my sins. i also pray for all my friends dear Lord that their spiritual hunger for the wisdom would be able to grow day by day. may you pls grant all my friends safety and as they face through their own sets of trials and tribulations, pls be able to guide them into the path which you want them to seek. i commit everything now into thy very precious hands. In Jesus name we pray, Amen. |